As per my schedule, so date today shall I
Today (just today), at the moment, I suddenly am feeling this sense of dread and obligation.
I don't know why the negativity, but I just feel rather drained of emotions lately.
To the extent I must tell myself to meet at least once a week feels so wrong.
It sounds and feels forced somewhat. Yet, I know its not totally forced.
I would like to, but am not 100% enthusiastic. Perhaps 50%.
I think its unfair to him that I show this increasing lack of interest.
I probably blame it on work and time.
As work becomes more draining and takes up more of our time, we meet less and have less in common and less things to talk about. Its just something that spirals out of control.
I think I need to take some time off.
At the moment, I feel like drawing, coloring something.. and listening to music.
Piano pieces... like Kisses and Cake..
And to go cycling. I miss the outdoors.
I don't know why the negativity, but I just feel rather drained of emotions lately.
To the extent I must tell myself to meet at least once a week feels so wrong.
It sounds and feels forced somewhat. Yet, I know its not totally forced.
I would like to, but am not 100% enthusiastic. Perhaps 50%.
I think its unfair to him that I show this increasing lack of interest.
I probably blame it on work and time.
As work becomes more draining and takes up more of our time, we meet less and have less in common and less things to talk about. Its just something that spirals out of control.
I think I need to take some time off.
At the moment, I feel like drawing, coloring something.. and listening to music.
Piano pieces... like Kisses and Cake..
And to go cycling. I miss the outdoors.
posted by Ade at
10:02 pm
2 Comments:
I do think you are too tired out and barely have any time for yourself so now that you have the time, you really wish to do what you want instead of having to go on a date just because.
Maybe you can just talk to him and the two of you do your own things while being in the same room? Maybe this would be better?
*HUG*
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April, at 9:09 am
Ya agree with April. Think due to heavy workload of mine, I find it hard to meet Kenneth as often too. Let him know how you feel, then only can work things out together. Slowly slowly try to spice things up again. *pat pat*
By
Femi, at 9:32 pm
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