Epiphany

Finally able to take a breather after a long day’s work where I encountered mistake after mistake, I was in deep thought all the way home.

I hate making mistakes. Coz I’m a perfectionist. Yet I hate being slow. I want to be efficient. Somehow these two ideals clash. Due to my carelessness. Sometimes I just hate myself.

Being too efficient takes the toil on one. I feel drained, tired. No longer do I have the energy to do anything anymore. I shall try to go slower, aim for perfection at the first attempt. Who cares if I got to OT? As long as I have job satisfaction and pride in my work, I should be happy.

After dinner today, I was checking up on the hamsters. Tic, Tac n To are all very lively. Scrambling onto my hand for adventure, licking the water off my hand (I just washed hands), using my hands as stairs to the cage door. Liz would adopt Tic and Tac probably. I wonder if To will be lonely. Peanut was very quiet. He slept at the corner of the cage and didn’t move even though I was stroking his head, ruffling his fur. Peanut’s quite old. 1 yr plus. I just realized he might leave me soon.

In a Station of the Metro

The apparition of these faces in the crowd;
Petals on a wet black bough.

Life is short. Why rush?